5 Months probably too long

I think a 5 month hiatus is probably long enough. I have no excuse really. Other than just daily life and having no desire to do anything other than exist and take care of my kids. I just read over a few of my posts from the past year and yea, nothing has changed. I think that hit me like a lead brick. I need to change that.

An update of sorts since the last time I have been here.

1. We moved. We are in a brand new 3 bedroom, 2 bathroom condo and I love it. I still have the house and we haven't gotten everything out of it but all essentials are here.

2. My middle son changed high schools and is living with his dad during the week so he can go to school in a town right next to where I live (like 5 minutes away). So that has been a big adjustment but it has done wonders from him, he really likes his new school. His other school had 5 suicides in it in 5 months... big problems going on and I am so glad he got out.

And everything is just about exactly the same since last Sept! Sad but true. Still separated from my husband, absolutely no changes there. We are moving towards divorce not reconciliation. It would have to take a LOT to achieve that.

My daughter is still dancing and she is growing up so fast. She just turned 11 and is growing up by leaps and bounds, scary actually.

My oldest just turned 19 and it is quite concerning to be a mother of a almost NOT teenager! Which means the year he turns 20, I turn 40...holy shit where did the time go.

My middle one will be 16 this Sept and that means another driver in my home. Hard to believe.

I'm still at the same job and I still love it. It has been almost a year and it has flown by..

Happy Mothers Day!!!

I have to admit, I am not a huge fan of Mother's Day. I tend to not like holidays that "force" you to show love, respect, attention to certain people on a certain day (Valentine's Day, Father/Mother's Day). I like to be spoiled and pampered EVERY day :-). But my kids like to do things for me on this day, so I graciously accept.

My daughter and my husband made me breakfast this morning. Both of my son's had to work this morning, so they weren't here. They both told me happy mother's day. I got cards and a movie I wanted. But most of all, I just love being with my kids.

My oldest has become my friend. He has matured so much this past year and we have always just "got" each other. The older he gets, the more evident this becomes. I don't just love him, I really, really like him a lot. If he weren't my son, I would choose to have him in my life. To be able to say for the past 18 years that I am his mom, has been fantastic.

My middle son has always kept my life interesting. He is someone that either makes me so proud I almost burst or so mad I almost explode. He is very hot or cold. But he has passion!!! He is the most loving child I have. He would give me the shirt off of his back if I needed it. He would spend every penny on someone else if I would let him. He is the most unselfish child I have ever met. The older he gets there are way LESS moments of anger and way MORE moments of joy. Being his mom for the past 14 years has left me breathless in anger, but more importantly love.

My youngest daughter is the heart and soul of this family. She has brought a smile to every face she meets. She is filled with pure love. She doesn't have a mean bone in her body and loves without inhibition. She makes me want to be a better person, let alone mother. Her brothers adore her, I adore her and my goal is to keep her innocence alive for as long as possible.

Happy Mother's Day to everyone!!!!

The answer to it all

My two boys were teasing their sister. How crazy is that, right? Of course, she was basking in the attention, as she loves to be the center of it. She was laying on the floor and the 14 year old got down on his hands and knees and was crawling towards her (don't ask... cuz I don't). He was growling at her or something equally as mature and she screams,

"NO, DON'T... I'M TOO YOUNG"

My 18 year old and, 14 year old and I busted out laughing. So that is our new answer to stuff we don't want to do. NO, I'M TOO YOUNG!!!!!!!!

The. Best. Kids. Ever.

Wednesday night into Thursday morning we got 6 inches of snow and single digit weather. So, the kids didn't have school yesterday. I stayed home in the morning with them and didn't come to work until 10:30. It was rejuvenating to be home with them, even for just a couple of hours. Well, it was too cold outside to go play out in the fresh snow. Plus, our snow isn't really for playing in... we have so many layers of snow, ice, snow, ice...etc. And I had threatened them to NOT go out and they listened!

So, I get home last night about 4:30 and those sweet, little angels had taken down my tree. They got the boxes out of the basement, lugged them upstairs (well the 18 year old did), my daughter took all the decorations off, my 14 year old son took the entire tree down and then HE carried all the boxes downstairs (mind you he is a tad over 5' tall and barely breaks 100 lbs....LOL). I seriously got all misty eyed when I got home. They were so proud. My daughter, "Look mamma, look what we did for you!" My 14 year old, "We wanted to help you out."

It was seriously one of the nicest things they have ever done for me. I don't even care how they packed up all the stuff. But next year when I go to get out the decorations and they are all askew... remind me of this. Now I just have one question, where are my kids and who took them?!?!?