Hope

Today I have hope. I don't want to say it out loud what is going on for fear of jinxing it. I just have hope that I thought I had lost.

Have you seen my....?

It's very apparent I have WAY too many things on my mind and not a enough cells to accommodate these 'things'. I went to my husbands apartment on Saturday to drop off some things I had accumulated and needed to give to him. Since my daughter dances on the same side of town he lives I stopped by after I dropped her off at dance. Our boat is stored in the town I live in until we decide what we are doing with it. So, he says will you take a check to the boat rental place (exactly 3 blocks from where I live) on your way home. I said, "sure" cheerfully. So, he puts the check in my purse. Easy schmeesy, right?

Not for this dumb ass. I go and pick up my daughter from dance. I get the check out of my purse (MISTAKE #1) and hand it to my daughter (MISTAKE #2) and say don't let me forget to take this to the boat rental place on our way home. She says, "sure" cheerfully. On our way home we stop by our house (MISTAKE #3) to get the mail and I run inside (MISTAKE #4 - do you see a pattern here?) to grab something. And we go home...

Yes, we went HOME. Uh, forgot about the check AND LOST IT. My husband texts me the next morning and says "did you get the check to the boat place okay". I freaked the f*ck out. Shit shit shit. I looked all over for that check and couldn't find it. I got the distinct pleasure of telling my husband that I managed to lose a check in ONE 25 minute drive from point A to point B. I suck

Hell Week

This is how I spent my time this week:

1. Daughter had the flu - passed it to me - passed it to middle son. Oldest son escaped somehow.
2. My step-son's house burnt down. Yes, burnt down. It was horrible. They are all safe and okay, thank god. But they lost everything. His mom's car was parked in the garage and caught on fire, which by the time she figured it out the garage was engulfed in flames. It's a horrifying experience.
3. My dad was downhill skiing Friday night (he is very active, in great shape, and is 62). They were on their last run and he fell (not sure if he passed out or what, since it was an easy hill and he is good at skiing) and hit his head pretty hard. He was disoriented, they rushed him to the local hospital and did a CAT scan and found blood on his brain. So they then rushed him to the state university hospital and did another CAT scan and there was no more or less blood on his brain, so they think it's a concussion. He came home yesterday afternoon and sounded good on the phone.

It's been a hellish week. On top of an ongoing divorce, being freaking broker than broke, kids, work - now all this. I am just so thankful that everyone ended up okay after this hellish week.

The Three T's

I'm tired but I can't sleep. I will deeply regret this tomorrow...err... later THIS morning when I have to get up and go to work. Won't be pretty folks.

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I think at the end of the month I will be going to New Jersey for work. It will only be a day or two but I am excited to travel again. I use to travel all the time for work but then it got to be too much and it was hard on the kids. With this job my travel requirements are pretty few and far between, which is good. I am just happy for a change of scenery and no one will be calling me mom for a couple of days!!

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I've got to finish up my taxes and get them sent it. How does one get a huge chunk of money back from federal but owe a couple of hundred to state? I am stumped so I haven't submitted them yet. I still think I am missing something or made a grave error that isn't showing up yet. I am a little paranoid about it. That's on my agenda to finish up tomorrow night.

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Well, I am off to bed, I have bored myself tired.

I am an EMPRESS!!!!!

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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