Grandparents

My grandparents are moving back to our area today. To say I am excited is an extreme understatement. I love my grandparents sooo much and am very thankful that at almost 40 I still have both of them. They are 86 and 85 and still live very much independently. They moved one state away to be closer to my uncle and to live a little more south for easier weather. This was 8 years ago. Their daughter, my mom, myself, and my two sisters and all of our families are up here. They decided that they wanted to spend as much time with us as they could and they also wanted to down size. So they are moving to a senior apartment complex in my hometown and I could not be more excited. They will be rolling into town tomorrow afternoon and we will spend all day moving them in and getting them set up. It has been raining the last two days, so I hope the skies clear. If not, it would still be worth it!

It's the little things...

Is it sad when you think you have accomplished *something* when you actually take a shower AND shave your LEGS? That's how I feel today, folks. Whew, don't have to think about that again for awhile!

Fall and Football!

I love fall! It is my favorite season. Since I am in the midwest we are lucky to have all four seasons. We get hot hot in the summer and cold cold in the winter. But Fall is that wonderful time of year when during the day it can be in the 70's and down to 50 at night. I love the morning and the crisp air. I love fall decorations and fall colors. Ahhh, I LOVE it's almost October!! <3

I also love fall because it's FOOTBALL season baby! I have spent the whole day today watching football with my 16 year old son. Pure heaven!

What I have been busy doing...

Here is what I did last weekend:

It was very yummy! I tried to duplicate Yin and Yang from the Melting Pot. It's white chocolate and mild chocolate fondue - swirled together. MMMMM good.

2 months sure does go by fast!

Well, we are all moved! Although we only moved 25 miles away, it seems a lot longer. I love our new place!!! We are in a townhome, in a townhome community. It's like a park in our backyard! We have a pool, sand volleyball, 2 playgrounds, picnic benches and grills... all about 20 steps from our back door. It's really nice. My daughter has gotten a ton of use out of the pool already and this is only our second week here.

It's going well with the husband and I. It's been an adjustment living together again and it hasn't all been rays of sunshine but for the most part it is great being back together. Marriage is work and when you are alone you don't have to work on anything if you don't want to :)

Our summer so far went from 60's and raining to BAM 90's and muggy, hot and shitty. Since I hate the heat, I wasn't thrilled.

Must run now, but will be back soon!

Life in the fast lane

Finally good news to report. The year long separation is coming to an end. My husband and I are going to get back together. It's been a very long year and it's been very hard on my emotionally, mentally and physically. I think it's been hard on him too, that's what he says. I believe him. It's been a year filled with sadness, a few happy times, despair, a few positives, ups and downs like no other. About 2 weeks ago, we had a heart to heart (right at the time of of our 1 year separation anniversary) and all of a sudden it was like a light bulb went on inside his head where he figured out this was it, he was going to either have me forever or lose me. I think that shook him. We have spent the last week analyzing our entire relationship and taking it step by step. It has been great so far. We both want this very much and both are willing to go the extra mile to be together again. We will be together again in June and I am happy.

Please stop this ride so I can get off

I am sure this will turn into a garbled mess before I am done. I have so many thoughts going through my head I feel like I could go crazy. In no particular order. In bulleted form, to somewhat ease the pain of the garbbledness (and yes spellcheck I just *know* that this is a word, so there!).

• So, it has really effected me that one year later I am in the same place I was last year. It will be exactly one year tomorrow that my husband and I have split up. And I am the same fucked up mess I was a year ago. One thing that has gotten under my skin is an acquaintance friend of mine and her husband split up almost at the same exact time we did and both her and her ex-husband are REMARRIED! Not that I want to be remarried, cuz I don't but OBVIOUSLY they have both moved on and they don't find themselves sitting here going, "well shit what has changed in a years time??"
• Still cry - check
• Still love my husband - check
• Still hate that we are separated - check
• still want to be with him - stupid dumb check
• Sits and asks herself each and everyday why she can't move on and lead a normal life - BIG FAT check
• Wonders if she needs to go back to the dr. and talk to her about changing her medication because it isn't working *obviously* - CHECK and CHECK and CHECK
• Wants to run away but thank god has her kids so she doesn't - check.

I hate april 4th.