Monday, December 20, 2010

Bah Humbug

I have caught a case of severe bah humbug's. I think it is because I am much shorter on cash this year, than any other. It's depressing. I have to keep reminding myself that it's not about what you give it's about who you are with. But I have to say it over and over and even I'm getting tired of hearing it.

My job has been another source of stress for me, I have loved my job since I started it almost 3 years ago. Then about 2 months ago, all hell broke loose. My boss was first demoted beginning of Nov, then a month later, fired. It has caused a lot of havoc and uncertainty. It's also been a time of a lot of change in a short span. it's a lot to take in. That has not helped.

My husband and I are still not stable and I am back to square one - questioning if I should stay in a marriage that is so unstable and rocky. I need to face my fears and stand on my own to feet and just cut the ties. That is what my head says. My heart is scared.

I'm almost done with school. That is the really great thing. I have 6 classes left, I will be done by June 2011. I am so excited. After I finish, I am seriously contemplating just continuing on with my same school and getting my Masters, while I have momentum. Then I can truly say I am done.

Just so many things on my mind right now and I needed a place to just vent and get it out there. One of my 2011 goals is write a lot more often and get back into my blog. It's 3 years old and I have neglected it for about a year. I do read all the blogs I follow though, I read them from my phone, I just don't comment very much. I hope every one's holiday's are treating them well and everyone is ending 2010 with a bang!

1 comment:

Kathy said...

I felt the same way about the holidays this year. Financial strain makes it harder than it already is. Sorry to hear you are dealing with so much. Hang in there and do what you think is best!