Why do the days drag but the years fly?
How can 18 years be gone in a blink of an eye?
It seems like only a short time ago that I was young and in love.
Carrying you, my first child, in my womb.
Preparing and decorating your first room.
The love I have for you is more than mere words.
Your smile, your laughter, you becoming my mainstay.
Nothing could have prepared me for this day.
Remembering you toddling around the house
Saying Fe Fow on Feet
And eating your mac and cheese
Watching you learn to read at lightening speed
Learn your colors,
Seeing you walk down the street for the first time to school.
Worrying out of mind to how your day will go
Counting the minutes until I see you out the window.
Sending my first born half way across the world
Watching you board an airplane for the first time
As I stand alone, left behind.
Praying each and every minute you were gone.
Such a short time for you
But forever, for me
Through tear laden eyes, watching you get on the bus for the first time.
Hoping, praying, wishing for your fast return
Nothing will ever stop my feelings of concern
Such excitement, just two short years ago.
On that first day, watching you drive down the street
My heart dropping down to my feet.
You are an adult, legal, can vote
Nothing can compare to this day, however
Where I pray that in your eyes I am not a failure.
You are the love of my life
A direct part of me
For always and forever, you will be my baby.