I really miss reading every one's blogs. I miss knowing what's going on and who's' doing what. It sucks. I am up tonight doing my homework. We had a big group project due Tuesday and we needed to have out stuff turned into tonight to our group so we can compile it tomorrow. Fun Stuff.
So today on my agenda of stuff to complain about... my marriage. So, i am pretty sure my marriage is over. I hate typing that out. I hate saying it. I hate thinking it. I HATE taking my ring off. I love my ring. It's so pretty and everything I ever wanted in a ring. This month marks the 6 month of living apart. We have grown comfortable in our distance and it really is getting farther and farther each day. We just don't see eye to eye on things and mostly him...he can't compromise or adjust. It's sad because the biggest part of me is sad because I am a failure again. It makes me sick to my stomach to think that. Seriously, how am I ever going to be in a relationship again with this? Not that I want a relationship but realistically speaking, I am sure someday I will want one...and what then? The ring and 2 time loser is what makes me the most upset...not necessarily losing the husband. Hmmmmm, something to ponder.
I have been reading some posts of all of you here and there, I haven't commented much, but I am trying to stay in touch. I MISS ALL OF YOU!
Monday, September 15, 2008
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Soon there will be post in which I do not complain
So, I am sitting here doing homework and thought I would take a quick break and get my mind off of Not for Profit Accounting... which is just way too much fun.
I am just finishing up week 2 of my online classes...and holy cow was it a slap in the face back to reality. This crap is a lot of work!!!!!!!! Dang. So, I am spending Tuesday and Wednesday nights plowing through homework, postings and trying to get everything posted by midnight Wednesday. I do little things during the week and weekend but I am so busy most nights, I find myself falling asleep at my computer.
To add to my delight (misery), I have started an extreme bodyshaping class. I started that this week. It is intense kickboxing 3 days a week and resistance training 3 days a week (yes, that adds up to SIX days a week at 6 AM... go ahead... tell me, I know I am nuts). Plus on top of that they give a nutrition guide to follow as well. So, naturally I got sick this week and am coughing up a lung and have had 2 asthma attacks. Oh the joys of Murphy and his dumb a$$ law.
Oh and my frickin cat has fleas. How does an INDOOR CAT GET FLEAS?!?! So, off to the vet we went last week and got medicine, household spray for when they start jumping off of him.
And then we have everything else in my life, being a mother to 3, keeping up on my house (hahahahaha, I was laughing so hard I almost feel off my chair), cooking - which I have been doing more of due to this nutrition thing I am following, and working 40+hours a week. And I wonder why I can barely find time to breathe....
I am just finishing up week 2 of my online classes...and holy cow was it a slap in the face back to reality. This crap is a lot of work!!!!!!!! Dang. So, I am spending Tuesday and Wednesday nights plowing through homework, postings and trying to get everything posted by midnight Wednesday. I do little things during the week and weekend but I am so busy most nights, I find myself falling asleep at my computer.
To add to my delight (misery), I have started an extreme bodyshaping class. I started that this week. It is intense kickboxing 3 days a week and resistance training 3 days a week (yes, that adds up to SIX days a week at 6 AM... go ahead... tell me, I know I am nuts). Plus on top of that they give a nutrition guide to follow as well. So, naturally I got sick this week and am coughing up a lung and have had 2 asthma attacks. Oh the joys of Murphy and his dumb a$$ law.
Oh and my frickin cat has fleas. How does an INDOOR CAT GET FLEAS?!?! So, off to the vet we went last week and got medicine, household spray for when they start jumping off of him.
And then we have everything else in my life, being a mother to 3, keeping up on my house (hahahahaha, I was laughing so hard I almost feel off my chair), cooking - which I have been doing more of due to this nutrition thing I am following, and working 40+hours a week. And I wonder why I can barely find time to breathe....
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
If you're busy, the best thing to do is add more stuff to your plate.
Really, that is the best thing to do! So... I do think about my blog several times a week and have the best intentions to update and write and vent and talk about stuff and work through things... and yea, it never works out that way.
In a nutshell - my middle son started High school in August, my daughter started 5th grade in August, my oldest son started College and I re-started College. Cuz really, I have nothing better to do with my time.
I have 8 classes left to get my BS in Accounting with a minor in Management. EIGHT CLASSES!! I said screw it, I am going to just buck up and just get it done. So here I am, enrolled in 2 classes this term, then 2 classes next term (terms are 8 weeks long) and I am doing it all online, a first for me.
My daughter is still in dance... we go 4 times a week. Plus still working full time and still loving my job. AND I am still a single mom AGAIN. No husband at home, STILL. It is almost to the point of no return in my book, but never say never. We all just spent a weekend at my dad's house up North. He lives on a lake and we had the best time ever... so who knows what will happen in the future.
I haven't been able to read much lately, but I will try hard to do so soon. I miss you all.
In a nutshell - my middle son started High school in August, my daughter started 5th grade in August, my oldest son started College and I re-started College. Cuz really, I have nothing better to do with my time.
I have 8 classes left to get my BS in Accounting with a minor in Management. EIGHT CLASSES!! I said screw it, I am going to just buck up and just get it done. So here I am, enrolled in 2 classes this term, then 2 classes next term (terms are 8 weeks long) and I am doing it all online, a first for me.
My daughter is still in dance... we go 4 times a week. Plus still working full time and still loving my job. AND I am still a single mom AGAIN. No husband at home, STILL. It is almost to the point of no return in my book, but never say never. We all just spent a weekend at my dad's house up North. He lives on a lake and we had the best time ever... so who knows what will happen in the future.
I haven't been able to read much lately, but I will try hard to do so soon. I miss you all.
Monday, July 14, 2008
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Why God Hates Me and Other Nonsense
First off, I am so excited... my daughter's dance teacher and travel partner is coming over on Saturday so we can exchange pictures... whew. FINALLY! I mean it's only been almost 2 months. So, I will post some cute pictures when I get them. My daughter is still talking about her trip to London, it made a huge impression on her. Even though we live in Iowa, we live in a suburb, so therefore, no where near a farm or anything country. So, she comes home from London and exclaims, "I am a city girl, mom!" Which made me laugh, as I have always been a 'city girl' too. Naturally, she wants to move there...
This housing slump or whatever they call it, is such BS. My house got appraised last week, and WHAT A JOKE!!!!! Seriously, there is no way in this life time I would ever consider that price, it was an insult actually. So... I see myself staying there for a little while longer. I haven't decided if that is good or bad yet, either way, it is what it is.
Does anyone else love their husbands so much one day and want to kill them the next??? Or am I the only loon? We are still separated, and most days we are actually getting along really well and I see so much potential and feel so sure that this going to work out and everything will happen when it is suppose to. Then there are a few days, that I want to stab him in the eye. Sometimes I feel like I am alone with my craziness...
Is anyone else watching So You Think You Can Dance... which by the way, is my favorite show in the world. I am not a TV watcher by any means. I have no shows that are must see. I don't watch American Idol or Dancing with the Stars or Lost or any of those other hot shows, but SYTYCD is my MUST SEE. Thank God for Tivo, he is my best friend right now. I also kind of got hooked on A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila on Mtv... that was so dysfunctional, I couldn't help but LMAO. But that's over and crazy enough, Tila didn't find love, AGAIN! Go figure... Oh and I also watch most Sex and the City reruns on TBS and then watch them on my HBO Video on Demand... but that is whenever I feel like it, so no must see TV there either. Oh and SATC movie was freaking FANTASTIC! I know that is about 6 weeks late, since it came out the end of May, but Hey, I have been busy people!!!!
Well, that is enough senseless rambling for one post and I really should get back to work now :-)
This housing slump or whatever they call it, is such BS. My house got appraised last week, and WHAT A JOKE!!!!! Seriously, there is no way in this life time I would ever consider that price, it was an insult actually. So... I see myself staying there for a little while longer. I haven't decided if that is good or bad yet, either way, it is what it is.
Does anyone else love their husbands so much one day and want to kill them the next??? Or am I the only loon? We are still separated, and most days we are actually getting along really well and I see so much potential and feel so sure that this going to work out and everything will happen when it is suppose to. Then there are a few days, that I want to stab him in the eye. Sometimes I feel like I am alone with my craziness...
Is anyone else watching So You Think You Can Dance... which by the way, is my favorite show in the world. I am not a TV watcher by any means. I have no shows that are must see. I don't watch American Idol or Dancing with the Stars or Lost or any of those other hot shows, but SYTYCD is my MUST SEE. Thank God for Tivo, he is my best friend right now. I also kind of got hooked on A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila on Mtv... that was so dysfunctional, I couldn't help but LMAO. But that's over and crazy enough, Tila didn't find love, AGAIN! Go figure... Oh and I also watch most Sex and the City reruns on TBS and then watch them on my HBO Video on Demand... but that is whenever I feel like it, so no must see TV there either. Oh and SATC movie was freaking FANTASTIC! I know that is about 6 weeks late, since it came out the end of May, but Hey, I have been busy people!!!!
Well, that is enough senseless rambling for one post and I really should get back to work now :-)
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Someone please shoot me and put me out of my god forsaking misery
ON TOP OF EVERYTHING ELSE IN MY LIFE.... I GOT CALLED TO SERVE ON JURY DUTY!!! I may lose it now....seriously
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Happy 4th and other ramblings...
Happy 4th of July (A day late...of course)!!
I feel like a big heel... I posted once in the month of June. That blows... I have spent the last few hours reading several blogs and catching up and finding out what I have been missing the last month.
My last post described how busy I have been and honestly that hasn't changed. I feel like I am going in about 15 different directions but mostly I feel like I have no direction.
I really think that in the next few months (as soon as I find something close to me and acceptable for my standards) we will be moving. It will either be a condo or town home, to rent, not to buy. I have a buyer for my house that will purchase it as is. We have so many repairs and improvements that need to be done to it, it will be worth it for me to be out from underneath it, since my husband and I are still in a state of uncertainty. I have lived in my house for 18 years, so this is HUGE for me but it's also a relief too.
My husband and I are just there... nothing to really say, just nothing really. I am still in deep thought about that and what it means. I'm not ready to decide anything yet.
My kids are my life... they are doing great. I have been super busy at work and my two boys are both working. My oldest is working full time and my middle son is working at the same place but just part time, they are both doing really well. My daughter has been kept busy most of the summer and I can't complain. The only thing to complain about is not having enough time to get together with her travel companion and exchange pictures!!! My god, hopefully by the end of the damn summer I will have decent London pictures.
This is sad, but the biggest thing on my mind for the future is my middle son going to highschool this fall, my oldest starting college (living at home, though) and what studio my daughter is going to dance at and what we are doing about classes and what she is going to take. I am EXCITING... I know. I freaking almost bore myself!
One thing though, is I really do love my new job. It is going so much better than I ever thought it could. I cannot say enough good things about it. It is perfect for my personality, my style, who I am. It's amazing. If only everything else in my life could follow suit!
I hope everyone has a great holiday weekend and I vow to blog more... for my own sanity. I also will get caught up reading blogs and comment soon. I didn't comment today, but I have been reading. :)
I feel like a big heel... I posted once in the month of June. That blows... I have spent the last few hours reading several blogs and catching up and finding out what I have been missing the last month.
My last post described how busy I have been and honestly that hasn't changed. I feel like I am going in about 15 different directions but mostly I feel like I have no direction.
I really think that in the next few months (as soon as I find something close to me and acceptable for my standards) we will be moving. It will either be a condo or town home, to rent, not to buy. I have a buyer for my house that will purchase it as is. We have so many repairs and improvements that need to be done to it, it will be worth it for me to be out from underneath it, since my husband and I are still in a state of uncertainty. I have lived in my house for 18 years, so this is HUGE for me but it's also a relief too.
My husband and I are just there... nothing to really say, just nothing really. I am still in deep thought about that and what it means. I'm not ready to decide anything yet.
My kids are my life... they are doing great. I have been super busy at work and my two boys are both working. My oldest is working full time and my middle son is working at the same place but just part time, they are both doing really well. My daughter has been kept busy most of the summer and I can't complain. The only thing to complain about is not having enough time to get together with her travel companion and exchange pictures!!! My god, hopefully by the end of the damn summer I will have decent London pictures.
This is sad, but the biggest thing on my mind for the future is my middle son going to highschool this fall, my oldest starting college (living at home, though) and what studio my daughter is going to dance at and what we are doing about classes and what she is going to take. I am EXCITING... I know. I freaking almost bore myself!
One thing though, is I really do love my new job. It is going so much better than I ever thought it could. I cannot say enough good things about it. It is perfect for my personality, my style, who I am. It's amazing. If only everything else in my life could follow suit!
I hope everyone has a great holiday weekend and I vow to blog more... for my own sanity. I also will get caught up reading blogs and comment soon. I didn't comment today, but I have been reading. :)
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