Sunday, April 27, 2008

Who's Bitter... NOT me!

I stayed out until 1 AM last night!!!! I felt like I was 25 again :-) I went to dinner with my mom and sister, then we went to a casino but not to gamble but to see a friend of ours band play, but then I don't think it was their band but we had fun anyway and before we knew it, it was ONE AM!!!!!!! I ROCK!

Talked to my husband on Friday night. Short version: he thinks the best thing for us (i.e. him) is to get divorced. Long Version: He just doesn't think he can do it anymore, he's never actually lived on his own, for himself, without responsibility, he wants to just do what he wants when he wants and how he wants. Ummmmm, okay. So you couldn't of thought of that, oh say... a mere frickin' 10 months ago?!?!? Who in the hell doesn't want NO responsibilities... but omg, that is part of life you selfish a$$hole. (I told you the anger phase was about to hit). I am so pissed off at myself (which I know is dumb) that I trusted him, let my guard down, I let him inside... you know the part that is vulnerable and you only let people you truly love and trust know and see... yea THAT part. And he basically ripped it apart and tore it down. I just hope someday its repairable... who wants to be alone for the rest of their life?!? Not me. It will take a LONG time to heal, though, if ever.

I don't want to be a bitter, lonely old lady. So, I am determined to buck up and move on and show him just what the f*ck he is missing. A$$HOLE!

Also for added joy, my birthday is in two days. Happy Frickin' Birthday....... here's your divorce!!!

5 comments:

Law Student Hot Mama said...

Here's to a girls' night out!

Also, I totally agree - how immature. It sounds like he's going through a mid-life crisis and didn't bother to let you know 10 months ago that it was coming on.

Loser.

utmomof5 said...

Nothing like a night on the town to feel better.

I agree with the comment above. SOund slike a mid life crisis. Very immature -- get through your angry stage(and have fun doing it, I can help you come up with names to call him if you want) and move on to bigger and better things!! I will be thinking of you. :)

Stacie said...

times seem hard now, but I promise you, you will get through it. We woman and strong resilent even...hold you head up high, you have nothing to be ashamed of. Your heart will be repaired, give it time and learn about you. *hug*

girlymom said...

I wish I could reach out and give you a hug. I hate that you are going through this and will pray that it is all esolved soon. In the meantime, I think some more casino girl nights are in order! Glad you had a good night even with all that is going on. Hugs.

desirae said...

Did you try yelling "No. Don't. I'm too young."? (It might have made you giggle to say that, just to make yourself feel better.) I hope he does realize he screwed up, and then he's all miserable and sick to his stomach.. Want me to egg his car?? Lol.. I'll put him on my list of people to visit at halloween that I never actually get around to visiting.. So do no responsibilities include not washing your underwear? Stupid mid-life crisis.. Why didn't he just get a fast car? Or a hair piece? Or new underwear?? Stupid men...